your house is haunted

Why would she die?

Shes special to me 

How would i put up with life

Never had the shiniest wheels

He said he has had prettier girls

Nobody knows he lies

But i dont like him

I want to run

But the other one is taken

Would it make any difference if i die

Would it hurt if die

I have not only loved once 

But twice

I didnt realise until now

When i am forced into other things

Idk if i can love anybody ever again

Idk maybe i am the problem

I have this rage monster inside me 

Idk whom to show it to 

Whoever sees it and leaves it alone 

It would get sad and angry

Idk whom to tell this to

I am not scared i am angry 

At him for ruining it for me

At her for never thinking about it

At her for fucking up everything

At him for not letting me go

At her for not telling me before

At me for all the years i wasted my potential

I never try maybe its easier to just die

Cause maybe i will never be in love

Cant exist without love

-h