do i even want it?

I am a hopeless romantic 

I spend days thinking about this guy

This guy who understands me,this guy who chooses to love me,who chooses to stay

I want it so badly to have somebody give my life a structure

But honestly i couldnt care less about having a guy in my life

I have goals i have questions but i have my answers and 

I have the strongest of all of them time

I am not scared to be by myself

But i am tired of always being by myself

I do want to fall break but i dont wanna be glued

I just want somebody to hold my hand and help me figure it all out 

Because i am tired

-h