an illusion with delusion

I feel safe 

Even though they made me realise that

All the times i thought i was safe i was faking the act

I do it all the time

Maybe for others to like me 

Maybe to get the love i am denied of

But i dont know why it feels like i have lost myself

I feel numb all the time 

No matter how hard i try 

the switch just wont turn on 

But they made realise to accept myself 

Then i see the switch midway

But it gets there all the time

I dont understand how better things wont happen because i know have been denied of them

But now do i need to beileve an illusion to make it happen

Thats not how my universe works 

But i have not been given any laws

So i march without a support 

I hope universe catches me this time if i fall