for the last time

I broke a vow i made to myself

I feel guilt but no handcuffs

I thought telling someone why i run away would help

But i now see it all

I see how you used me against me

I see how i lost all the power because i chose vulnerability 

And then you asked what is wrong with being vulnerable 

This is it

See how it is wrong

And it is your fault 

I dont feel anything,nothing catches me here!

I keep killing the thought of you

Because i dont understand 

How you never existed for me and you never will

But i am not sad i just dont understand 

How come you did not see it?

Believe me it is never exhausting rooting for power 

But everytime i get it i dont understand what to do with it

But this time one thing i know is that i wont miss you

-Harshita